( The first Poetry Tuesday of the year was here and I penned the following poem .The theme was new year, new place or new beginnings......)
It's not that I haven't tried,
I have succeeded but at times I did fail.
There have been ups and downs in life,
We all know it isn't always a smooth sail.
But then lately, nothing seems to be in control,
For just how long can I keep my dreams on hold?
I feel lonely, incomplete, full of self-doubt,
My thoughts, my feelings, lay buried deep- untold.
I try to push myself, but something holds me back,
Confined and tethered by rules I am bound.
Alone in a crowd with none to call my own,
I try to find solace but love isn't around.
Expectations from society, family and my own,
Escape from all this -far away I want to run.
No one seems to care , I am in deep despair,
This world, these people, my fears I want to shun.
The walls are closing in on me, life seems futile,
Have to go somewhere else, all this is too much to face.
Just one final decision, that's all it will take,
Then I will be at peace, in a brand new place!
(There is a spate of suicides and it makes me feel sad to know that there may be many more who are contemplating suicide.Dejection, depression, sickness, money matters, love matters, peer pressure, fear of failure......the reasons may be many but the result is the same-snuffing away of a life....forever.
What goes on in a person's mind when he decides to bring an end to his life? )
It's not that I haven't tried,
I have succeeded but at times I did fail.
There have been ups and downs in life,
We all know it isn't always a smooth sail.
But then lately, nothing seems to be in control,
For just how long can I keep my dreams on hold?
I feel lonely, incomplete, full of self-doubt,
My thoughts, my feelings, lay buried deep- untold.
I try to push myself, but something holds me back,
Confined and tethered by rules I am bound.
Alone in a crowd with none to call my own,
I try to find solace but love isn't around.
Expectations from society, family and my own,
Escape from all this -far away I want to run.
No one seems to care , I am in deep despair,
This world, these people, my fears I want to shun.
The walls are closing in on me, life seems futile,
Have to go somewhere else, all this is too much to face.
Just one final decision, that's all it will take,
Then I will be at peace, in a brand new place!
(There is a spate of suicides and it makes me feel sad to know that there may be many more who are contemplating suicide.Dejection, depression, sickness, money matters, love matters, peer pressure, fear of failure......the reasons may be many but the result is the same-snuffing away of a life....forever.
What goes on in a person's mind when he decides to bring an end to his life? )
